August 2012

Just another year coming and now already August 2012... Another 4 months will be entering year 2013..

August 2012 almost come to the end already.... This August is very meaningful to me, its my brithday month, hubby's birthday month, yet its my sister who left us marked the 3rd year..

In early August, we went to Sabah for 5 days 4 nights holiday at Kota Kinabalu , just another adventures trip for us, we went to National Park at Kundasang, Canopy Walkway which was high 550m from sea level, walk thru the canopy walkway abt 180m long... its was so scary for me but its an experiences for myself... We also went for the island hoping for 3 islands, Mamutik Island, Manukan Island and Sapi Island; and we also went for the River cruise, seeing the monkeys, and fireflies.. its so beautiful to see at night, they are just like tha Christmas Tree...

Just after the Hari Raya holidays, Parents in law and sister in law went to PD for 3 days 2 nights, and Me and hubby have a chance to rest and relax at home.... In these 3 days, I have a chance to cook just for both of us, eat, rest, watch tv together...

Mum & Dad is still as usual at home, the boy is now 14 years old, getting mature, he just like his mum, the happy go lucky type...

I do pray, just wish they stay healthy, happier as always.

Cheers

2nd year you have leaving us...

Dear sis,

Today you have been leaveing us for 2 years.... missing you very much... how have you been doing there?

Have you been seeing 5th aunt ? She has gone for up there joining you, 3rd aunt, uncle Phan as well...

Don't worry, YangYang is doing good... he is form one now... taking care by mum and dad at home... brother in law also ok.... brother also ok, but lately need to go to see doctor at Hospital Ampang to follow up his medical check up on the blood level as usual...

Missing you here... Hope you are ok over there.... no pain... no worries....

Marathon in Life...

Refresh back memories, This have been 10 months I didnt update this blog...

This blog have been a place for me to express my mood, especially when Im down...

This week is truely busy for me.... Since last month, in & out hospital for father's medical check up, father's ECG report seems not very good... as his has mild heart problem but as doctor said , its still under control... no medication or operation needed at the moment, but need to control his blood pressure, else he will suffer with chest pain or serious heart pain....

and this month need to go to Selayang hospital & GH for both's check up, father's report ok, will meeting up with doc again this month end to see his eye's condition and if everything ok, will make booking for the cataract operation... but guess it would be schedule after 2-3 months from now...Thats government hospital... all we need is wait....

Mum's routine check up will be next week... this will be the 4th years since she had cancer in 2007.... everything seems going fine and I just hope she will be staying fine and keep going on...

for myself... this week not going that smooth.... especially in work... meeting & work together a very particular person... Although that person everything is good, but somehow, too much particular will tends to make people get stress & tension.... and I realize, some people may be friendly & easy going with things going on, but at the back, they will talk and comments in a bad way... Its very hard to deal with these kind of person....

Anyway,.... life going on, My marathon in life still going on... Like the photo shows... the leg is the one accompany me when going thru all these challenge...

Like Kungfu Panda 2, the master sifu said, Inner Peace... I need that...

Cheers....

09082009 - 09082010- 1st year death anniversary

My dear sis

Today 09th August 2010, you have left us one year from the date.

Yesterday night, I couldn’t sleep at all and my mind was keep refresh back the night when I was with you at the wad….

All friends came to visit you, your friends form the temple were doing the prayers for you… this time, you didn’t moved at all compare the day before as you were trying to give responds when they were doing the prayers for you… But that day, you were just sleep like a baby… I know you were truly tired with the fever… Me and brother kept trying to use the wet tower to make you cool and feeling better,,,, but in our heart, we both know that yourself also trying hard to fight for it…..

Me and brother dare not going anywhere that night… When at 1am, I was closed my eyes doing the praying for you… when I opened my eyes, you managed to open 1 eye looked at me, my heart feeling cramp a while… I saw your tears dropping down…. I told you that do not worries that I will be taking care of Wei Yang no matter what happened… and from that moment… you were taking longer times for your breathing…. From that moment, I know you were about to leave already…. I asked brother to call brother in law to come faster….and you opened your both eyes… and tears dropped…..

The same time, more longer time for your to breath and I kept asking you to let it go and brother in law is on the way….. Finally at 2.15am, brother in law came, and me and brother stepped away and let you be with brother in law… and after 5 minutes at 2,20am, 9th August 2010, Sunday morning, you left us… Gone with the GOD…

For the first time and the only time, I changed clothes for you; I choose the green small flower Cheong Sum, with brother in law’s help, I’m able to wear it for you…. Because I don’t want anyone else touch your body….

Sis, 1 year already… Don’t worry, Wei Yang is going to be 12 years old next month, he is more matured nowadays, knowing how to control his pocket money, and he is helping me to look after mother as well… being a small helper for me at home.. Brother in law is ok too… he started working again in the car workshop and now WeiYang and himself more topics to share with already… You don’t have to worry about … and one more things, soon I will be driving again… and I promised , I will drive the car and go to temple pray for you….

Love you and missing you so much here….

Call from China or? (+876332555)

I received a call from this number just now around 11am (+876332555).

The caller was a lady crying away badly and started calling me Mummy.
She spoke in Mandarin and... kept on crying and calling Mummy... telling me she is in pain, very pain and someone is hitting her badly...

At first I was answered " huh" to her... then she repeated the same sentenses and immediately I hang up the call.

Goodness gracious... OK, someone trying to scare me into thinking that my daughter are in their custody and probably thinking they will get something from me. Maybe they didn't know their phone number will be displayed at the phone as well? Could be dangerous or a waste of time...could also create anxiety in parents.

But the main thing is, I don't have any kid yet!!!!!!!!!!!

So becareful my friends when you receive the call from this number....

Feeling...

Sometimes I do feel that my feelings will lead to me choose what foods or drinks that I will be going to take during that moments...

I have stopped taking coffee since a year ago... but lately i took it back again, only choose 1 type, which is Iced Black Coffee....

Why? I don't know what the main reason, just these 2 months , I dont have a good mood in the working places, lost the passion on what i'm doing now.... losing my patient to deal with such an idiot supervisor.... Got let go something which i dont wish to let it go.....

In these 2 months, I've lost my focus, seldom smile.... and yesterday I took the webcam, and self snap a photo of mine with the smiley face.... thats the only pic I took since CNY until now....

Iced Black Coffee.... when I drink it, i just feel I want to be alone, listen to oldies, Jazz, thinking of nothing, don't want to think anything...

That is what my feeling now......

A Chinese New Year Preparation

This is year could be a special Chinese New Year for myself and hubby. This is the 1st Chinese New Year we going to spend together for both family, visiting relatives and of course the important one, give angpow…

But this is kinda busy CNY preparation for me, as I need to help my mum for buying and prepare those CNY stuffs, and of course I need to bring my nephew to buy new clothes for him, saloon to cut his hair…. And also, first time I will not having the reunion dinner on the CNY eve at my mum’s place… therefore we will have 1 day earlier at home, as usual I will cook for them to have the dinner together….

Haiz… busy busy busy… how I wish if she is there, last time we talked before, I’ll be the cashier and she will be the driver to help in the family… but now…things has change, the driver on longer with us, therefore my aim this year is make myself to be the driver soonest possible…. Let her spirit with me… I wish I can do this…